So here counts number three in my eight grave yard shifts. This is really the only time I like this. I think when I'm tired I have much more of an opinion. Usually I just let everyone else do the talking and opinion stating. Once I get tired I decide its my turn and all you better just watch out.
I swear this is just a horrible Deja Vu. I sit in this chair watching movies. Movies? Usually fun. Now, hell. My eyes have this problem where they want to close when its normally time to sleep. Last night my genius told me to try a rockstar. At one point last my legs felt like they were floating independently, but, at least my eyes were wide open. I'm going to try pure will power tonight.
Back to the opinion stating....
When I meet people I have a horrible first impression. I think that I get this bad impression because I dont talk for the first while that I mean someone, unless its work related. Its not cause I'm pissed and its not because I'm shy. **My thoughts** "What better way is there to get to know somebody then by simply watching and listening?" It takes me about an hour to decide what relationship me and new person are going to end up with. They dont always know that we're about to be best friends forever and buy matching braclets, they probably think I hate them. Its really not that hard to be liked. All you have to do is be as real as you are. As soon as I feel like someone says something to impress and build themselves up I loose interest. Keep in mind, I dont have a fair standard becuase I often fall short of my own expectations.
Mostly it just hurts my body to listen to other girls suck up and say things they dont mean, agree with things they dont actually agree with and laugh at things I know they dont think are funny. Fake laughter only convinces fake people.
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