The year of horrors is over!!!! In case any body wants to try and tell me anything sad this year, dont, i refuse to believe it cause this years going to be bombdigity.
I haven't updated in some time,
Thing i find relevant Currently,
living at the Pops house, its only my third time back in three years
brunette
Haven't murdered a single girl at school
With the hottest man you and I have ever seen.
Dexter to you, Dex to me
your hair and why i need to be doing it
Fiber
How awsome my family is
How much i greatly dislike Idaho. What are you a triangle or what, why dont you decide what shape you are before my family lives there.
How i keep trying to hang out with old friends but am a huge flake
Also, Megans and her huz are freakin awesome. And their dog.....sometimes
When I speed through a yellow light and notice a cop car waiting near by my heart usually skips a beat and I very obviously slam on my breaks thinking maybe it wont notice. So far this tactic as seemed to work but I also wonder if they just see that its a tourus I'm driving and assume I'm just an eighty year old women they don't want to bother with. But anyway, This morning after sleeping in I was in a hurry to get to work and didn't mind speed limits. Speeding down 3300 I spot a sheriff coming my way...not even a jerk of my foot toward the break. It was a sheriff van.
Because I over think everything I had to think about why it was I didn't slow down. So I asked myself.
Well when I see one of those new charger cops I'm scared to even look the driver in the face in case he doesn't like my look and decided to to start slaming into my car doing 80 until a bloody end. So hey, I'll slow down.
But whats the sheriff doing in a domestic van? Isn't the sheriff the guy you call when you single handedly captured a notorious murderer or when your car breaks down in texas chain saw territory? I just dont believe he'd pull me over. He's prpbably busy taking some inmates to a play date and has to drive carefully because hes got freshly frosted pink cupcakes for the little tykes in the back.
I just hope they're handing those out to the big headed ones. Nothing says masculine like a minivan.
Mostly I just feel like me and my powerless exsisters score a point on this one.
Also I feel bad for you police bike riders, your butts must be really sore.
Define Love.
Can you?
Google tries with, Love: "a strong positive emotion of regard and affection." But do you not regard and feel affection because you feel love? Can you not regard and feel affection with a lack of feeling love?
You can say its acting toward another in a way that expresses your deepest respect, Its acting toward another unselfishly. But is that a definition? That's what you do with it, but what is it?
In the past few weeks I've been thinking about this I've been incapable of discovering a direct definition of the word.
My thoughts,
To rephrase the batman begins quote,
It's not what Love is, it's what love does that defines it.
We all know that love can inspire people to do great things and I could go off on those for hours. So, love inspires people to be great and selfless. But just look at the effects of loosing love. That coming from a lover, a family member, or even a pet. These people will stop eating, talking, and some even stop living. They'll spend all day locked in their rooms, they'll even go as far as to threaten or act upon suicide. Those who think love such a small thing and don't respect power of it are ignoring something that has the power to give and take away a will to live. So is fear the reason for needing a definition? In my extensive scientific research on the topic found me this quote from my new favorite dead guy C.S. Lewis,
"To love is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.”
Its sad the way the word has lost its significance. In high school I remember that most girls I couldn't stand would say I love you to anyone who made a joke or anyone of their friends they saw just for hugging them in the hallway. I read a quote that said something along the lines of, be careful the significantly meaningful words you use because once you find yourself in a position were you really need the word, you wont have it.
So really I dont think I can come to a conclusion on this. Love to me is the greatest thing there is. What more can I say?
You have just as much a right to wonder around the many corners of this square building as I do. So, when we both happen to round the same corner you really dont need to wisper in a barely audible voice, "Oh no", "Oh! Sorry." or "Ooops!" I'm pretty sure you meant to turn the corner, just like me and I'm the human here to say that I'm not sorry about it. If its really that nessessary to apologize lets all just hug every time.
Thanks
Steffany
Sometimes I'm to tough for my own good is alls I'm saying.
That or I am high.
And human again, In a car.
Every day at work I use the same bathroom stall. Every time I see this and wonder if I'm the only one who thinks It looks like a large nosed cartoon version of Mr T. Just forget I said it was in the bathroom while you decide for yourself.
